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A blog about the life and adventures, thoughts and musings, and moments of loving and learning of Kellie Steinbeigle.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Agency and goal setting

Something amazing has happened!  Ever since that day when my depression finally went away, I have found myself a new, happy, dedicated, motivated, purpose-filled Kellie!  It's amazing!  My life since then has been intensely better, and I've been able to find so much more joy, even in the most mundane of projects.  Every accomplishment, it seems, brings me satisfaction, not necessarily because of the project itself (like, say, doing laundry) but more because I have been given the strength and power to do it!  Something has changed within me, and I'm confident that it is a direct result of the kind, divine assistance of my Father in Heaven. It is He who provides me with the strength and power to accomplish any significantly difficult or simple task in this life! It was He first of all who gave my life to me, and it is He who knows the potential for growth and good that I possess as one of his divine children.  Lately I have discovered the importance of goal setting.  As I have been doing my best to overcome some of my greatest weaknesses (time management, depression, etc.) I have been setting simple goals, like doing homework as soon as I get it, going to bed early, taking care of myself physically and spiritually and emotionally, etc. I've learned some very important lessons in this!  Heavenly Father respects our agency!  I've been so amazed and impressed at how true this is!  He knows the desires of our hearts, and I have felt, as I have striven to improve my life, how much his hand has been involved in helping me to achieve the righteous desires of my heart.  For instance, I had a goal to be more healthy, taking care of my body better by getting the exercise, nutrients, and sleep it needs.  This is one of the things I have chosen to do to help me maintain a healthy state of mind.  Considering how badly depressed I was last semester, I have chosen to involve myself in activities, thoughts, etc. that will help me to avoid the negative thoughts and idleness that lead me so swiftly to become depressed.  I prayed for assistance to be able to accomplish the goal of exercising three times a week, and since the day I started, save for one day, I have been aided in successfully keeping this goal!  I have learned however, that Heavenly Father cannot, obviously, do everything for us. He can help us.  However, we need to decide first what things we need his help with, and ask Him for them.  Soon after, He swiftly sends his angels to encourage and help us to fulfill those goals which we made.  He respects our agency, and it seems like when we let him know what we want or need, if it be a righteous desire, He instantly helps us to achieve it.  I suppose this is why they have the scripture: "It is not needful to be directed in all things... be anxiously engaged in a good cause."  I feel so much how true this is! As I have set goals of worth and righteousness, the Lord has supported me with the strength I have needed to fulfill.  Seriously!  Another goal I've had has been to be on time and present at every class this semester and to do all the homework ahead of time.  Since this is something I have been weak at for a while, I cannot expect to be perfect from the start, however, I have seen great improvement, and continue to find myself getting better!  Just this week alone, I was on time, if not early to every academic class (but not the art ones I'm afraid).  Like I said, perfection can't be achieved overnight.  But another way I am working to combat depression is to recognize the little progresses and to delight in each step for the better! Anyway, I just wanted to bear my testimony of the power of agency and of the swiftness of the Lord in serving us according to our desires (righteous) and needs.  I sure love and am thankful for his great kindnesses to those who seek to do his well.  How blessed we are to have such a caring and loving and gentle Father in Heaven!

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